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I am that school girl who trips in front of her crush - in more ways than you can know. it seems as if it is a cry for attention or as if a secret privation to your heart that only those who read will understand discovery of u should be genuine and authentic Music is an act of community Music fills my life and gives me new hope On stage people flush with their own power An expression of emotion in life Songs can’t change the world, but maybe a room I want my songs to inspire somebody Writing is a way to become myself Speaks for our lives and what we dream to come In everyday, music will save my soul
I want to live for something bigger than me. I want to be part of something I can feel, but that I cannot explain. I want to feel that power and strength for a cause more noble, and worth more to me, than my life. Something spiritual and something I have suffered to attain. Something rebellious, but something our Lord would smile upon. I want to beat the odds, and feel invincible, not in my own strength, but by the strength of this unity or this cause that motivates me. I want to be able to stare down death with no fear, but only a challenge. I want to make my life worth something to people I don’t know. I want to love with a passion of such magnitude that I will feel satisfied both physically and emotionally. I want to see peace and taste the joy of success in those I trust and admire. I want to know our God and know, but possibly not understand, his power. I want to be proud, not of myself, but of the spirit that has moved me in wondrous ways. In this way will my life be complete. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Girls lie. They don’t want a guy that’s good looking, or smart, or athletic, or popular. Not even the guy that can play the guitar like he was singing it himself. She doesn’t even want the guy with the sexy voice or the best hitter on the varsity baseball team. This may seem ironic, but we aren’t that vain…just selfish. All a girl wants is to be wanted back. If he wants her, then she will like him. She will care for him like she will care for anyone else. Not because she really wants him, or cares how well he can play guitar; she just wants someone to want her, to need her, and care about her life. And she will learn to love him. Because things are just better when people are happy. Just care how he is feeling – just keep him happy – and he will love you more for it. He is happy with a girl he loves that cares about keeping him happy. It seems right….but it’s definitely not. Keep hope that true love is better than that; that you aren’t selling yourself. To cover it up, so I don’t have to see it anymore, somehow makes it unreal. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If – Rudyard Kipling IF you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you; If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too: If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise; If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master; If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim, If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same: If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools; If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings, And never breathe a word about your loss: If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!" If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with Kings -- nor lose the common touch, If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, If all men count with you, but none too much: If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run, Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Did you ever get that feeling when you were little that you knew everything, that right and wrong was so simple, and you had the solutions to everything? You wondered how it was so hard for grown-ups to see how simple everything really is, and that there must be some trick to it, which made the same answers not work for everything. You might have even wondered if, as you grew older, you’d become very dumb and maybe you should right down everything you know now, just in case. In songs and movies you would hear about or see people that made stupid mistakes, and lost the most important things that they had, and you would promise yourself that you would never be that dumb, and always be happy, and have everything that you needed or wanted. And now, not such a long time later, you look back, you realize that you’ve made a couple of the dumb mistakes you said you wouldn’t, you’ve lost something, someone, some part of yourself and somehow you wish time had a rewind button, and you’re thinking, maybe you should have written down everything then. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Take your time in reading this - so you catch all the bullshit 1. if you had tried to find out who you are and became more confident in yourself, amongst other things, there is no doubt in my mind that i would still like you 2. I don't know how much i like you because im confused about who "you" are. 3. but as far as deeper things go, alot of the things you said werent exactly deep 4. there are other instances in which you have said things that i didnt like 5. i think you need to know yourself better 6. the last thing i would ever want to do is hurt you 7. you are very important to me and very sorry that i have to put you through this 8. but it wouldnt be fair to you for me not to do this 1. i know one thing you want more than anything else is for someone to truly love you 2. you are very self-conscious which i understand you might not be able to control but you need to think of yourself more highly 3. i already know that you are amazing but you dont seem to tell yourself that what the hell did u expect? u want me to be myself? this is me to the core. see? this is the real Kelsey when she’s broken and crying her eyes out Contact Me 
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